Went to the park last night. We had an unusually large crowd (50+) considering that it wasn't the end of the month yet. Word has apparently begun to circulate about what happened and a number of people who showed up made a point of approaching me and expressing their condolences and complimenting the pork chili verde (which was pretty good IMO as I had three bowls of it before I left the house I blogged the recipe here: http://secretasianmanfood.blogspot.com/2010/09/crockpot-pork-chili-verde.html). I don't consider myself a hero by any stretch of the imagination, yet it brings me comfort to imagine the kind of message being received by some of these people that despite nearly losing my life doing it,  I want to continue helping them - because they matter. As C.S. Lewis once observed, it's one of the most difficult things to believe about oneself - that we do in fact matter.