Even though what happened in regards to Leon last week was IMO a very positive thing, I've had nagging thoughts about the evening. The thoughts finally synthesized into the realization that once this guy left the immediate vicinity, my main thoughts were to be glad that he was no longer an immediate threat to anyone having dinner - including myself.
Fortunately, Nathan continued to observe this person as he walked away and when Nathan saw this person accost a single female pedestrian, Nathan moved quickly to intervene on her behalf and sent the guy on his way.
My first thought was that I should have maintained my vigilance. But almost immediately after I was glad that Nathan acted as quickly as he did and that the woman came to no physical harm, This might be the 2nd best thing to happen; not so long ago I might have stay fixated on falling short driven by my own sense of shame. not to mention how my lack of vigilance led to how I got attacked.
It's a fine line I'm still learning to walk. I do think it would have been a better thing to have remained vigilant - but not if it's driven as a backlash of what happened to me. And despite the wealth of mental faculty with which I've been blessed, I can't cover everything.
So I'm going to choose to think mainly about how it's a good thing that Nathan is part of the group/
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