Jay

the jay i referred to in my previous post wasn't there the next week. apparently he passed away the next day:

http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/latimes/obituary.aspx?n=james-peter-mccloskey&pid=167299675&fhid=11023#fbLoggedOut

i wonder if he realizes the statement *he* made with his actions before he died.

but it also brings up another apparent motif in my life: often when i feel like i've made a significant connection with someone, they disappear. i wouldn't say that i attributed these happenings to the work of a malicious God as much as an indifferent one. but that's the real horror, as C.S. Lewis once put it: 


The conclusion I dread is not 'So there's no God after all,' but 'So this is what God's really like. 

Deceive yourself no longer.”