Monday, July 29, 2013

PAY DAY

or in this case, taking care of hospital expenses. I'll update this as it goes, but I think I've gotten all the bills I'm going to get at this point.

EA Health: $4020
Upper GI endoscopy & subsequent care
exploratory
broncoscope/wash
ER visit

Anesthesia: $2500

Huntington Hospital: $108334.00 - insurance rate? MY COST uninsured: $10634.11

this is pretty funny.

Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Zimmerman-Martin.

There's a lot of feelings flying high in the aftermath of that trial. The media's gone out of their way to sensationalize and polarize things. Don't get me wrong; something is not right here, but a larger issue is that some "events" get sensationalized while other get little to no coverage whatsoever such as the Kermit Gosnell trial recently, or even the arrest of three black men in St. Louis for a "kill whitey" crime spree. Other heinous crimes where whites were the victims such as the murders of Channon Christian & Christoper Hewsom back in 2007 never seemingly made the news outside of Knoxville Tennessee.They were a white couple that were kidnapped, gang raped, tortured and murdered by a group of black men.

I was attacked because I was helping homeless people as an expression of my faith. But since it's a christian church, it wasn't ever going to make the news. But if' I'd been Buddhist and attacked by someone claiming some sort of christian connection I can't help but think that the media would have had a field day with it. Seriously, isn't this as much a hate crime as any other?

Sunday, July 14, 2013

It's been a while. I used to play a popular PC game called Civilization II. It's the game I played all day when I ruptured my achilles tendon some 12 years ago and I was confined to a bad with full length cast on my left leg. It was written to work with Windows XP and so when I migrated to windows XP I bid CIV II farewell.

I recently discovered that Atari recompiled a version and made it XP compatible, so I got a copy through eBay and have been playing the game non-stop. I would almost describe it as a retrenching done in spite of my recent decision to make an effort to put myself out there in more new situations. It concerned me a bit that I can't point to any sort of recent event that would precipitate this, but it's been suggested that this is my way of coming to grips with what's happened; by immersing myself into something where I have a sense of control. I'm not that's the case but it makes a great reason to keep playing.

The only things I've kept doing consistently is the homeless feedings on Tuesday, DJing blues at Joes on Sundays, and Friday lunches visiting various chinese or ethnic asian restaurants in the San Gabriel valley. We've been attempting to try out this new ramen place for the last two weeks, but they've been running out of broth and keeping spotty hours (technically, they haven't had their grand opening yet, they're still working out kinks, etc. I scheduled another attempt this past week, and while waiting for the others to show up, I browsed a chinese video store a few storefronts down.

There wasn't anything I found even remotely interesting in the place, but it prompted me to reexamine the origins of Secret Asian Men when I made a point of seeking out asian themed films half a lifetime ago in an effort to connect with my asian heritage. It probably started with filmaker Wayne Wang's "Dim Sum: A Little Bit of Heart" (although Wayne Wang actually started with "Chan is Missing") & "Eat A Bowl of Tea" and when I moved to LA, I and other asian males my age were discovering movies like "Living on Tokyo Time", and also discovering movies made by asian filmmakers like Ang Lee, John Woo, Kar Wai Wong. etc.


We cheered when Universal broadcast the series "Vanishing Son" because Russell Wong was scoring with white women instead of the usual interracial relationships between some asian babe and a white guy. We booed when America embraced "Joy Luck Club" which depicted asian males as largely dysfunctional. Even now, your typical asian male is depicted in only three basic categories:

1) ethnic older grocer/laundry owner type who can't speak english
2) resident martial artist
3) geeky or effeminate lab tech

Even after living in LA for almost 25 years, i still carry the awareness of how provincial middle america can be in its outlook & I still have expect to encounter it out here.. It's different being in a much more cosmopolitan setting out here, but it's definitely still assimilation than integration. More of this later.